- The old days memories -

Assalamualaikum and Hello everyone.
How're you guys doing so far?

I know Min, AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Today, there's no dbsk related just me, only me and my past.
The story began today at this second when I accidentally read my friend blogs.
It about her life and I kinda get to emotional and BAM! My head make me turn back the time when I'm still a student.

Of course I'm still student now but in different genre when in the past it the high school genre and now maybe I'll go to this form 6 or to college.

I had been this innocent human for these past 5 years.
This innocent here, I;m not talking about I'm a good girl but a VERY-STUPID-IN HER OWN WORLD -GIRL.
I could put that well, don't I.

My past is really dark I may say.
The school things really really really main dark past.
I have this bad relationship with teachers,friends and crap things that happen around me.
Don't get me wrong not bad in that vandalism, gangsterism or what so ever BUT with communication and thought, something like that.

Teachers, you could say they don't understand where my potential can go and they being a damn crap being a pushover with their so call teacher status. So yeah, go die!

Friends, some back-stab each other, I'm not saying I'm good but the back-stabber itself is someone you can't really imagine. She look innocent with those religious side and a quite person but only god knows how truly pain in the ass, she is.

I don't want to make this a wrong idea but making friend hurt with that attitude, I really want to see what kind of friend will be friend with her in the near future.!
Me, hell no. after school end, no more contact with that so call innocent life!

Get lost !! XD

During the college and university applied, I make a really stupid mistake thinking that I have done a good decision.
In this 'Matric' I think they call it in English,
I was a science stream student but science just don't click with me.
I'm more to this businessman lifestyle. So when I applied, I put the course which I have to put is '.science stream-' I change it into -accounting-
Thinking that I'll be selected because the grade for accounting much less to be accepted rather than the science one~~~ but to my other stupidity, the 'Matric' that I applied (the place) doesn't go with the
-accounting- thing ><

How crazy is that?
And now, here I am , with my blank mind .. I don't know where to go and I don't I can get chosen again because of my stupid action.
I just really don't know how things work back then T.T

I told my mother once back in the days:


If I'm not get selected in any of my choices, 
I'll start my own business but mother please patient with me cause I'm really really really really really really really really really really not good in anything I Do.
I'll experience losses but that's what I'll do if there's no chance for me to persuade my study further.
So bear with me because that's what I am and I'll try harder to achieve my goal.


I kinda felt jealous for my friends because they know what they do.
But me, I'm still collecting myself to turn into pieces.
In my life, I was never free like now.

I got this one friend who really I called my best-friend.
She's awesome and always help me when I needed her.
She's mature than me really fast and I thanked her for that.

Me myself, I'll work harder if I'm not going to study.
And of course, my brothers and sister will scold me for being a stupid person who just stuck at home.
Because I knew that I;m not this study kind of person.
Of course it really great to know other people and our mind will be more open but I think my business which I really want to make it happen if I don't study to become true.

So far, my life is chaotic.
I'm afraid to meet new people because I know, meeting them means I have to be strong for another chaotic life of mine.
Some things doesn't go well and that kind of things irritated me the most.
I hate people who controlled people and I hate when people not doing their jobs right.

but mostly,
I don't know what to do and this type of person, will be stupid forever.
I don't want to end up like that so I'll give myself a try and try harder to study and work.

Of course I'll let go of this painful past and so far I learned from it and with that I had made quite impression on myself since I can tolerate, knowing people with their side and yeah the craps goes on.

I'll keep moving forwards where there's so many things that I don't discover yet.

I'll fight until the end.

You can do it, Wani.
Always believe you can do it.

If there's a will, there's a way :))))
I love myself, so I'll try to explore myself more and be positive.
I love you, Wani. ^_____________^

And I want to thank my creator, Allah swt for opening my eyes, my mind and my heart to see, to feel to taste, to dream, to hope for a better life and myself.

To my mother who gave birth to me, thank you for always supporting me.
My father who know that I lack in so many ways but still he keep watching me grow to be one fine woman, that I'll be one day.

I'm still learning to be an independent, someone could be count on and less trouble.

Insya-Allah.

.. Proud of DBSK Love ..

Assalamualaikum, Anyeonghasaeyo and Hello everyone,
Today, in this so hot weather I'm being an emoshinki T.T

Sorry guys but the reason behind this is make me cry like an insane person here.
I was bored of myself and opened up Youtube and I found this 'The Secret 091024'
I click on it and my emoshinki began here T.T

You can watch it here : The Secret 091024

It a story about how out five boys make until this far.
Our Yunho, Jaejoong, Yoochun , Changmin and Junsu.

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'Do you know, everyone who in the industry of music and entertainment are so 'wow' with DBSK?'

I'm myself don't know until I watch that video.
Yeah, I know their name is really big and famous but when so many producers and composer are so look up to them I cried so much.

They all said :

- DBSK to make this far with their music is really 'wow' to me
- I think it because of their hard work and they are really easy going to get along with
- They are the people who love music and want to share musics with others who love their musics
- They have a big name in Korea and to have a big name in 'JAPAN' is really 'wow'
- I thought ' will they die like this?' , ' they never stop singing until 3-4 songs'

I always think that' it's okay for them to make mistake as they are also a human being, right?'
But after I watch that video and heard what people talked about them, that time I know :

' DBSK really work hard not to show their bad side , it's not because they don't want but because they think they will disappoint their fans, if they act like that :((

'they are the people who really love musics and they don't care for the popularity as they just want their music to be heard and love by all their fans :(' 

I cried so much , thinking that they always think about others than themselves and now when they are not together as one group anymore, really break my heart when the break up is not entirely their fault :(

' They have become an idol after 4 years building their name in Japan'

Can this sentences break me more T.T
They struggle for 4 years to make their musics being well-known for their fans.

- Tokyo Dome is their only dream -
* If they achieve Tokyo Dome, they can achieve everything 

Yes, Tokyo Dome.
Not some artist could performed there. I'm not telling that 'DBSK' is awesome since I'm their fans but please do searched more about them to know 'how they all can stand on that stage'

They came to Japan as a newbie singer not so famous singers they are right now.
They released many singles until 'Purple Line' swap the #1 in Oricon Chart .
*Oricon Chart in Japan are only for amazing singers like Beatles can be there.

They continued to work hard from the very beginning as they make tons of variety shows.
They keep moving forward until they stand on their dream stage 'Tokyo Dome' .

*Even though I'm a fans after their break up, watching how they performed on Tokyo Dome was absolutely amazing and Cassiopeia, I truly love you for making them who they are today.

To make to Tokyo Dome was really hard for Koreans singers as even Japanese singers themselves cannot do like DBSK do.

But today 'Tokyo Dome' had lost it shine. 

I'm so sorry for saying this (I'm really sorry for Japan citizens)  but after DBSK broke up, many of Korean groups performed there without any achievement.
Yes, some of them thanked DBSK for these but what happen to Tokyo Dome right now, I just lost of words.
And the nonsense keep on happening until I'm a Cassiopeia myself felt that :
-- > 'Tokyo Dome is only a stage for singers to make performance'

Tokyo Dome is not the Tokyo Dome that used to be once in the past.

'Do you know how many fans had left them after their break up?'

I know all of you is sick with this same goes to me but to know they easily left DBSK just broke my heart more.
But to think logically, is not their fault entirely as :
First from the Daum chart, DBSK had the most fans over 800 thousands people.
After the break up only left 600 thousands people and to think why the number decreased so much because (from my logically thinking) :

1- there only 2 members left as DBSK so who left the fanclub are MAYBE the JYJ biased.
2- they lumping lose their faith
3- go to the other group

I guess these are reasons.

Sometimes.. no..no.. every time I wondered how could they have stans?
I mean the stans before becoming one, they are Cassiopeia right?
But after the break up they being mad, nuts and crazy until Cassiopeia name itself, it really hard to hold not to mention the 'DBSK' also.

Seriously, Cassiopeia the OT5 fans are really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really amazing!

Let's look what Cassie had been through to protect the five :

First, they had to fight with the stans of course which also the sasaeng fans!
Second, they rich..even though they don't have much money yet they still buying their albums.
Not to mention, DBSK always #1 in the Gaon albums sales.
Third, they insane. They even got anti for themselves xD

But it's okay, as long as there are CASSIOPEIA, there are the five boys that we love so much :)

Some info about our fandom : TVXQ's Cassiopeia  also What is Cassiopeia?
*Only TVXQ Cassiopeia have their wiki for themselves.
Not to mention, Changmin give us this name ;)

'Do you know they already give up in the past?'

Do you all remember the 'Five in The Black Tour'?
They sang 'Proud' while they're crying.

That time they said they are almost giving up being a DBSK but after singing Proud and looking at their fans , they cried and all of their five heart spoke the same things ' let's go until the end'.

Guys, do you what happened if they giving up that time ??

We can never heard their musics,
We can never saw that smile,
We can never felt the happiness,
We can never felt the sadness,
We can never see they performance
Last but not least, we can never see and know the five of them.

I just cannot stop myself when remembering this painful feeling they had.
It's truly showed that they really had being through so much yet still they keep on smiling.

I just love them too much that sometime I think that they break up is never happen!
I know, I'm being delusional right now had to accept the past but to me they always remain in my heart.
Is this emoshinki attack again?

But seriously you need to see this video : DBSK Comment's on Proud
It look like I was there T.T

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Proud English Translation :

Passing by at a quick pace
I wonder how much of a season had already gone?

Walking through the scenery I’ve become familiar with
Without being able to slip away
From these distant memories alone
It's like I completely lost my destination
That was the time when I met you

We met by chance along this road
Even now I can’t forget, ever since that day
Much of the sorrow and anxiety I held
Everything had been changed
Through the warmth of your memories
Proud of your love

Finding two shells
Is just like a miracle..
Meeting you once more

If you're here beside me
Even the depths of my heart
Would be comfortable with this gentle feeling
Even if violent rain falls down
And strong winds blow about

I'll go out to protect this love
If we're together we can surely overcome all
Could I have thought like that at first?
So I don’t let go of this hand
I'll always gaze carefully at time

We met by chance along this road
Even now I can’t forget, ever since that day
Things that live on, things that I believe in
While changing towards happiness,
We’d both walk along together
Proud of your love

Proud of your love..
Proud of your love..
Proud of your love..
Proud of your love..
Proud of your love..

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Last but not least :

'Do you ever know they never ask for these?' 
- try ask them for yourself.

I know they want to be singers but I don't think they want to be this group who being looked up so far.

They start without nothing just to delivered their songs to their fans.

They don't know they will become this big.
They don't know they will met each other.
They don't know they will become 'DBSK' 
They don't know they will captured the hearts of many people.
They don't know they will hurt many hearts, shed many tears
They don't know they will had to endure so much
They don't know they will change someone live.
They don't know they will be loved by many.
They don't know they will be separated like this.
They don't know they will live like this until when.
They don't know when they will be coming back together.
They don't know when they will stand on one stage together.
They don't know when they will make their fans cried happiness together.
They don't know until when they will be together.

BUT

' They know they will work hard to give their best in everything they do' .


Before this emoshinki became worst, I just want to say :

I really really really want to thanks DBSK for making my life a truly meaningful one.
I felt pain when they broke up. 
I shed tears when the injustice happen to them. 
I felt hurt knowing they too are also humans that hurt by words.

Take note :
They are not perfect.
They shed tears, they can be hurt when someone leaving them, they cried if things goes too hard, they smile when they're happy because one thing, they are humans.

They are humans so I'm asking everyone who read my post to understand them.
They cannot just comeback as five. They need time to settle everything but the times they used might be forever as when something go smoothly , there's always obstacle coming their ways as they're humans like us.

But during those waiting, they showed us they still love each other.
They still 'always keep the faith' with us.
They still keeping and provide us with their songs even though they are not together.
They still keeping the 'red' .
They still hoping, hoping from that fateful day to come.

Thank you DBSK for you love,
I'll be waiting, hoping, praying for you,
I'm proud of your love.

'I keep Faith, don't Forget, We keep the Faith Eternally'

!!SELLING OFF TVXQ Albums & Merchandises!!

Assalamualaikum, Anyeonghasaeyo and hello to all tweet readers :)
I know for some who my loyal tweets really hate me for doing this but I have good reasonS to let this happen *peace*

Okay, my reasons are I love them and I want my collections to be in good care of you buyers :)
and I'm going to study since I pass my exam ^^ so before my beloved parents just throw these albums in the dumpster, yeah I want them save in your hands.

Seriously, I was insane this past few months thinking whether to let this go, but finally I know this has to be done :)

Desperately want to let go of these, so please buy more to get more discount (^,^)

So guys, enjoy shopping with TVXQ fun stuff *wink*

How to purchase :

Contact me via email (shinestar_shop@yahoo.com)
*Subject : Selling off stuff

or just leave comment below there *wink*


*The price is cheaper from my purchases. So if you still want to negotiate it, do tell me :)
*My price already include shipping cost.
*Provided Pos Laju serviced only.
*Albums + Merchs all in 'good+mint condition'/ detected means 2nd handed.
*If you're doubtful, don't purchase to avoid me scolding you.
*For Malaysian buyers only.

- Every purchase comes with FREE GIFT.

ALBUMS:

01- Mirotic (version D) - China press = RM80
02- *sold*
03- Mirotic (Version C) - Kor press = RM55
04- 'T' album - M'sia press = RM 40
05- Ocean (CD ver) + Yunho card - Jpn press = RM65
06- The Secret Code - Korea press = RM45 (case detected)
07- *sold*
08- *sold*
09- *sold*
10- *sold*
11- Xmas Gift - Kor press = RM45
12- Toki Wo Tomete (CD+DVD) - Jpn press = RM50
13- Break Out (CD+DVD) - Jpn press = RM50
14- 'O' Jung Ban Hap (Version D) - Kor press = RM60
15- *sold*
16- *sold*
17- In Heaven (Brown version) = RM70 + folded poster
18- In Heaven (Red Version) = RM 100 + poster in tube (sealed)
19- In Heaven Special Edition = RM120 + folded poster (Out Of Print)
20- Superstar (CD+DVD) - Jpn press + Yunho card = RM65
21- Keep Your Head Down (Special Edition) = RM70 + poster in tube/ RM60 (no poster)
22- Keep Your Head Down (Repackage) = RM60
23- Catch Me (Special Edition) = RM70
24- *sold*
25- The Beginning (Worldwide Concert in Seoul) = RM50

DVD :

1st Live Tour 'Heart, Mind & Soul' - M'sia press = RM50
3rd Live Tour 'T' - Kor press = RM130
1st Asia Tour 'Rising Sun' - Kor press = RM40 (case got missing)

Solo :
*Kor press

Jaejoong
- 'I' album = RM50
- 'Y' album = RM100 (my store -sealed) / RM170 (sealed, supplier) + poster in tube


MERCHANDISES :

=Official=

01- Jaejoong 'Thanksgiving in Tokyo Dome postcard' - Jpn press = RM70
02- TVXQ I AM Postcard (Black version) (2 pieces) = RM20
03- TVXQ I AM Postcard (White version) (2 pieces) = RM30
04- TVXQ I AM Postcard SET (8 pieces) = RM50
05- TVXQ KYHD Folder = RM20
06- TVXQ Starcard = RM60 *request picture*
07- JYJ Tony Moly Calendar 2013 - Kor press = RM50 (I treasure this lumping calendar @@)
08- JYJ 2012 Calendar - Kor press = RM10

Photocards:  *request picture*

- Yunho 'catch me' special edition (white background) = RM50
- Yunho 'catch me' special edition (blue background) = RM40
- Changmin 'catch me' special edition (blue background) = RM30
- Changmin 'KYHD' (white background) = RM30

=Non-Official= 
*Buy No. 1,2,3 - free No.4
01 - JJ Heaven postman DVD - M'sia press = RM20
02 - KYHD (CD) - M'sia press = RM20
03 - 3rd Asia Tour 'Mirotic' -M'sia press = RM30
04 - Paradise Ranch DVD - RM20
*free Live SBS featuring SJ and other artist.

Others artist :
*Kor Press

- Infinite 'L' Viewtiful Photobook (Part 1) = RM50
- After School (Red + Blue) + Kahi & Juyeon cards =RM80/ RM40 each
- Boyfriend 'I Yah ' Youngmin photocards = RM25
- BAP 'Live On Earth' Official Postcard = RM110 set / RM20 each *good material*
(all member available)

Most rare stuff in the picture is my collection :D
If want, can nego price with me.

Enjoy Shopping :)
Do request picture for clearer view.

Last but not least, to whom want to order TV5XQ new items , the email is the same :)
Just change the subject to : ready-stock

And those who still waiting for my reply, please be patient I just got internet right now.
Will reply them all ASAP.
Thank you everyone ^_^